Hi I'm gratefullgrady & I'm a dually, i say that regularie, as well as owning my alcoholism:
While I am blessed to work with many, my ace sponsee is also a dually, (since there are so few of us here, I try to work mostly woth other duallies).
Paid him friday & Sat morning he was back wanting more, He went to the bar & never got home. Things didn't go well, I kept the keys , fed him, fought with him , walked with him till I felt sure he would make it home. Later some gorrila with a bad attitude,(and no neck) (i think he's the bouncer @ my buddies fav.bar). Showed up with sponsee, I released the keys to ouyr my boss who gave them to him.
I am very gratefull I hadn't checked my answering machine & got the message no neck had left ...before he started key bound with sponsee..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My sponsee went to a meeting with the boss, then skipped on going to detox, though making sure everyone knows, what a sob I am & how it's all my fault, please pray for my buddy ed.
Rough monday, nogastalgic feeling & jammin the oldies. tks gg
The high point, laughing point of my weekend was getting, (literally) witchslapped by a resentment !
While biking with my nephew & grandnephew, we pedaled past the home of a man, who in years gone by had ripped me off for all the labor of a remodel, $850. A resentment I'd long ago let go with prayer, & hadn't thought of in years. As I pedaled by, out of no where it hit me. "Walk up & ask for your earnings." As I fought off the urge, I rode straight into an electric pole !!
I landed helmet first in the middle of the crossroads, banged and battered, Riding away (slowly) none the less.
I laugh each time I think of this old resentment.......................................
As my eyes opened, Terror, stark & unyeilding filled me........
I crawled, spasmastically to the bathroom in my piss stained pajamas....
(what it was like)
To cowardly to kill me, to shame filled to face daylight~prisons institutions,add nausiem....I slipped quietly into thw rooms of AA (my salvation) {what happened}
Today I work full time, happy, broke, & sober, leaks in the roof, chili's in the pot, By grace I have the reward of getting to Chair 2-3 times a week.....Don't sleep with Guilt & don't wake with Shame (what's it like now)
thanks for letting ,me share SO SO GratefullGrady!!
I honestly didn't think I could miss a sight as much as I miss the old SC...deleted my profile couple weeks ago....just couldn't read any more ugly ~ hate filled blogs................miss you guys too, no one has been coming here for awhile, Is there a great new sight I don't know about? Or am I the only one still a crazy ass drunk, gratefully living the promises one day atta time? <3 :( GG
