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    Life, Love, and the Pursuit of Happiness...

    Monday, December 1, 2008, 01:51 PM EST [General]

    A pondering...  
    I don't know...  
    My life is pretty amazing... 
    Sure, I've had some really rough times, some total devastation, and some really profound miracles happen.  
    I'm grateful for everything in my life. 
    I truly am. 
    When I need something, it always seems to be given to me... Maybe not in the timeframe that I want, but it's shown to me again and again...  
    I'm pretty good with having faith in that stuff.  In being patient and letting it happen. 
    It's happened again and again and again.  If I'm out of money or the bills are late, there always seems to be something that comes along to help.  Usually at the last minute of course... 
    But I have faith in that stuff and it happens.  
    So... why the HELL do I have such a problem with faith and patience when it comes to wanting someone to share my life?  
    I truly believe that we are instilled (inflicted) with a desire to love and be loved. 
    I believe in a true hearts desire. 
    I believe in a once in a lifetime... 
    So where the F@%$ is it???  
    It's so easy for me to fall into a pity trip over this... 
    I could whine and cry about wanting to hold someone or be with someone or do things with someone... 
    I mean, ****, I do the right things, I spend my life giving to others, I live honestly, and I'm a hellofa great guy... 
    So it's easy to slip into the poor me's and say 'why?'  
    But that solves nothing. 
    What it tells me is that I need more faith, more patience... 
    It tells me that I need to be giving more of myself... 
    I tell folks that I give unconditionally...  do I?  I hope so... 
    It's something I need to be more vigilant in...  
    Look... here's the thing...  Today, I'm lonely and insecure and I hate those feelings...  
    Thanks for listening.
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    Hi Big Dawg, i'm single & over 50 woo, I know you're thinking , Not you GG, But i digrese Yea it's so..That's the ball game, Ben down the Isle 4 times 1st wife 7 years younger 10 years ..15 years..20 years..More I made more I drank younger they got..Quicker they took the new **** gave it to some GEEK COULDN'T HOLD MY JOCKSTRAP, I've got a couple profile's up date a little, hell mostly it's date 3 n move in or move on, I can't /won't go that fast..You're RIGHT on schedule!!

    Sometimes Quickly Sometimes Slowly THEY WILL ALLWAYS MATERIALIZE IF WE WAIT FOR THEM.

    Thanks for sharing..It does my ole heart good ta know I aint the only one still waiting on the miracle.

    Trudge on!! GG

    GratefullGrady
    December 01, 2008
    02:11 PM EST

    Grady's way will get you laid, then screwed lol!

    Your way screams "Tell me what you want, and I'll be that way!" Too wishy-washy.



    Gurls like confidence in a man, not necessarily subservience (well some do but they are way too high maintenance to put up with for long), and certainly not arrogance.



    You're a big boy, put on your Man Pants, take a breath, settle down, and try to relax.



    Cool and confident most of the time but letting your passion show when and where it's appropriate, that's the key, IMO.



    Looka me! I live that way and even tho' I'm not nearly as pretty a man as you are, I have had and do not have any trouble getting dates. I've been asked many times, "How did an ugly galoot like you end up with a stunner like her?"

    (I always tell 'em to eat lotsa celery, since it reacts with yer skin when you sweat and makes yer pheromones smell gud to da laydees, butt I'm telling ya tha' straight dope, 'cause yer my Buddy!)



    So relax, let yourself be yourself and all will be as it should be in good time.



    Oh! And before I fergit - be a gud lissener. That means actually paying attention when she starts jackin' her jaws about girlie stuff...

    Richard
    December 01, 2008
    03:00 PM EST

    Carson, I have been saying for a couple of weeks now, that I'm lonely...I keep hearing that it's the holiday's and it's just that time of year!! Is it? Or is it that I'm really ready to be serious and grow with someone. I may not know exactly where my journey may take me, but I know that I'm willing to really put myself out there and find someone. I keep hearing in God's time and I know it's true, but I'm ready for that time to be now, and the hell with patience I want it now, but I'm powerless so I'll just have faith that my HP will bring them to me...All I want for Christmas is a pair of Loving Arms To Hold Me.

    Thanks for the share.



    Love & Hugs

    Red
    December 01, 2008
    03:40 PM EST

    Well, mine fell apart and it stings. But, I'm learning to love myself, take care of ME, and enjoying making my home mine, again. (For however long I have it!)

    I still believe that there's one out there. One for me, and surely one for you. I wouldn't change one experience, one relationship, because each time I LEARN something. I think we're right where we're supposed to be.

    Lee
    December 01, 2008
    04:09 PM EST

    Nothing ever happens in my life as long as I am white knuckling things. Let go, Let God...and if you can't...and I generally can't...then, you are powerless over letting Go and letting God...and soooo you ask Him to do for you what you can't do for yourself! And, ask your good friends to pray someone in...mine did for me. The combination worked. When it no longer seems so important is when God gets it done! lol. I have no idea why that is...but it seems to work with a lot of things.

    Charity
    December 01, 2008
    04:12 PM EST
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